Patience

Patience, patience

Someone painted a rock with the word

Some stranger in recovery

I went to detox because I was finally done

Finally done

Looking for peace at the

Bottom of a bottle

Done with feeding myself

Stories of

My lack of power

My instinctual manipulation

My self-hatred

This is where it started

Started long ago, actually

It started with a thought

That took years to become action

Patience, patience

I obsessed over my neighbor

Someone looking for his own peace

By drowning his body in alcohol

Misplaced my love because

I was newly capable of

Holding a greater capacity of it.

He sat with me as I wrote

The song was about

Lifting someone up and not letting discouragement take over

My mental space.

He continued to drown himself

And I still hope he'll stop someday.

Patience, patience

I met a bass player who

Made my hips move.

They'd been stuck since an imprint left on me by

A stranger,

That took 15 years to untangle.

We came together and came together and

And partied together

And love together.

But I couldn't party anymore .

Patience, patience

Another percussion man who

Unlocked desire in me like

I rediscovered sex for the new first time.

I put his hands on my throat.

Floating me in ecstasy

I met him backstage and

Fucked him in the bathroom and

Wondered if this was the new me.

He told me he loved me

And I was taken aback

He didn't know me

I wanted to be loved and I wanted to love him

But he didn't know me

Patience, patience

I met the next one

In a basement music studio,

Each of us doing what we loved best

Somehow this slight man's presence grew to encompass my whole world.

Our love has gone through seasons now

And I don't know if it will last.

don't know where our story will end.

I know I am interested in healing.

Patience, patience